Popping up after a long time

 Both my LJ and DW are so dusty. I haven't written anything in both journals in years. Still keep 'em active though. Just because.

What's new with me?

Let's see now, I turned 30 years old in 2016. 
Living my life day in day out, but feeling like a zombie just wasting life away.

Nothing new in terms of relationship though. 
Still the same old ボッチ女
Still horrible at taking care of myself
Still can't dress appropriately (attractively is probably forever a no-go for me)
Still living at my parents' place - since it's close to work

Speaking of work.. I just have no motivation anymore

It's not just that I have no motivation for this job.
I feel like I have no motivation for anything in life.
It's bad enough I hardly ever go out to meet friends or anything. Even in the weekends I would just rather laze around at home and not go outside. Completely okay just being inside...

I just don't want to do anything anymore...